The Shakti Shine - December 21, 2020

Shakti Love Notes

We are always growing. I love that! And the more I grow, the more I recognize how important it is for us all to share what we're going through.

So these Love Notes are a space for me to share with you each week-- about the studio, my life, how our community is growing.

Last week Maggie, Emily & I went to North Carolina for a short getaway. Have you ever planned, looked forward to, and been so ready for some time off and then you get there and your anxiety hi-jacks the car and won't let you back in the driver's seat? Yeah? No? lol well I have.

We were on a long hike (see views above, wow!) and as we trekked up the mountain I realized some things. That's normal for me when I get out in nature and get my blood pumping. Typically the thing that needs to come up comes up.

And, well, here's what I realized:

I've been not saying things that need to be said for too damn long.

Which is a funny realization because it's one I've been working on for years now, as a whole. And AS A WHOLE I've come a long way. And because nothing about growth is linear and there is no destination... here we are.

And the things just kept bubbling up as we walked.
This is what I need to say that I haven't been saying.
and this.
and THIS.

By the end of the hike I was jumping out of my skin with anxious energy. I don't know about you, but once I have a realization like that I NEED it to happen NOW>>>>

So most of the second half of last week was spent sorting out those conversations.

Woof.

And the anxiety kind of continued to linger.

And I just had to let it ride, ya know?

And just like everything else after a few sleeps it all mellowed out. Mostly.

I guess part of why I'm sharing this is just as a reminder-- to myself and maybe to you-- that expectations rarely meet reality. And just when you think you've figured something out, there's a strong chance it'll pop back up-- maybe even when you most wish it wouldn't. And ya gotta let it ride. Take the realizations when they come. Do what you have to do. And keep on.

Thankfully, Mags and Em are friends that hold space for what's present. Always. So that, too. Surround yourself with people like that.

This week may highlight some realizations. You may have expectations you didn't even know you had. But the more you can let it be, the more you'll see yourself more clearly. Notice. Let it ride. Call a friend. Keep on keepin' on.

I see you. I feel you. I'm glad to be here with you.

xx
Ruby