The Shakti Shine - October 5th, 2020
Shakti Love Notes
We are always growing. I love that! And the more I grow, the more I recognize how important it is for us all to share what we're going through-- even (and especially) me.
So these Love Notes are a space for me to share with you each week-- about the studio, my life, how our community is growing.
Who am I when I stop hustling?
It's so interesting the way my commitment to writing the Shakti Shine every week always allows me to bring forward what's present. This isn't something I plan for; it's something that comes to me. So I'm always asking on Sundays--
What's present? What's here for me to share? What's real? What do I want to say about that?
Sometimes what I want to say comes easy. Sometimes not so much.
This week I'm on the backside of taking a week off to regroup. I spent the week in Nashville with my friend Kate. We hiked, slept, ate, laughed. I can't fully speak for her but-- We needed that. Then I spent the weekend low-key and recharging from home.
It was a whole seven days of rest and receive. I only did what I wanted to do with who I wanted to do it with.
I don't think I've ever done that before.
I feel energized, present, attuned. I also feel like there's some deep work happening underneath it all, behind the scenes. It's not something I can pinpoint or articulate. So I'm just trusting that it's there.
Here's the big takeaway from my time away, though:
I am done pouring my heart and soul into people and things that don't pour back.
I've done that for a long time and it is exhausting. I think reallllly allowing myself to rest showed me just how out of balance that's been. I've been hustling to try to make people care, understand, want, see, invest in, and celebrate me. I'm tired of that hustle.
So along with energy, presence and attunement, I also feel some big fed up energy today.
And I'm thinking a lot about this:
There is a seismic difference between ignoring reality, running away and checking out vs taking appropriate and consistent time for healing, resting, regrouping & staying checked in.
I think where we miss out or get knocked off track is in forgetting where to place value and set priorities. So it feels incredibly potent for me to be asking myself lots of questions right now in order to check in with my values and appropriately align with my priorities.
Staying checked in is crucial right now as we all *continue* to navigate a pandemic, revolution, natural disasters, and an election year. ๐ค Staying checked in is how I'm able to eventually see what's real with clarity.
It's how I get somewhere.
I don't have answers. I have questions.
Like this:
How can I set boundaries that honor my energy?
Who can I rely on?
Who's on my team?
Where do I go to be seen, wanted, & understood?
Who makes me feel alive?
Where do I experience support?
Where do I feel free to be myself?
Who gives me space to be messy?
How can I better align my energy on investment with the reality of dividends I'm receiving?
Or better yet, how can I invest in things that invest back?
How can I leverage my conviction with meaningful impact with sustainable financial security?
How do I know when I'm running away?
What does healing look like? Rest? Renewal?
What does it feel like to give too much?
What does it feel like to be poured into?
When have I felt balanced? What's that like?
Who am I when I stop hustling?
What do I need right NOW?
It's helpful to have this sort of check in with myself, especially when I find myself waking up and feeling like 'What's the point?' and wanting to run away.
So yeah. This is where I'm at this week. Right now. Today. This is what's present, real. This is what I have to say.
Take a moment. Ask a question. Sit with the question. Listen. Rest. Receive. Act. Stay in the work.
Hope this helps in some way. Know that I'm on your team. Cheering for you always.
xx
Ruby
The Weekly Work
This is where we bring yoga off the mat together
1. Watch last week's IGTV w Emily & Enissa Rios about Queer Bypassing in the yoga industry
2. Support House of Tulip, "This is not just a program, this is a family. This is a community. Especially with [Donald Trumpโs housing department] rule to allow homeless shelters to turn away trans folks, we want to make sure that we as trans folks are keeping each other safe. This is about building lives and rebuilding lives"
3. Consider: What if everything you do could be practicing yoga? "Itโs less about what we think we ought to be doing and more about whatโs actually ours to do. Right here right now."
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Inquiry Corner w Emily on IGTV!
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